Worn

This picture is what being a mom can look like sometimes.. It's not all cute selfies with your children smiling. It's a worn out momma with huge bags under her eyes trying to not have to get up to pee since both kids are asleep. 

Motherhood is often grabbing your screaming toddler at 1:30am to join you in your bed while your 4 month old is trying to sleep in the bassinest next to your bed and your husband is on the couch. Normally my husband takes care of toddler if he wakes but he didn't hear him and he was upset. My job is to comfort, especially since that morning he got a bad coffee burn. Needless to say momma didn't get much sleep, toddler wanted to see how many times he can change positions for the next two hours. When he finally fell asleep sissy needed to eat.

In this picture daddy had brought him back to me after he slept some in his room and fell asleep on my chest and his sister is nursing! Momma was stuck but needed and loved. I may be lacking in sleep and outings out of the house but the days are never dull and constantly changing. 

As my second and last baby is four months old already I'm reminded how quickly they grow up. So as I sit and listen to her blow raspberries I remind myself to listen harder for things to smile and laugh about and slow down and savor. And if the morning is starting out rough don't freak out because it'll pass some times in 15 minutes and some times in a few days. This morning it seemed as neither would nap and both were fussing but now my toddler is asleep and I have time to eat lunch and love on sissy! 

So for today I'll accept that it will be spent wiping snot and cuddling my babies because that's what this period in my life calls for. I probably won't get out of the house but tomorrow is another day! And the rain is supposed to go away tomorrow too!