We had our appointment at the fertility clinic in Huntersville and even though some of the reviews I read weren't great, they were actually really nice. We both left feeling excited and positive. They were very informative and up front too with the costs of things.
It feels good to have the next step lined up. I don't feel like things are lingering anymore. It's nice to have a facility that is pushing to get you pregnant before I didn't know what was up next or what the options were.
If I don't get pregnant naturally this month then I go in March on the first day of my period for a few tests and they'll put me on Femara. We are all praying that if not pregnant this month then its successful the first go round. We don't have a lot of money to do lots of rounds.
In case anyone is unsure as to what IUI is http://americanpregnancy.org/infertility/iui.html
It just helps things get to where they need to be and helps our chances. They put the sperm in the uterus.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Excited but nervous..
I have so many emotions going through me. I'm going for a consult, well hubby and I, I like for him to come with me so I don't have to relay all the info to him after I hear it. Plus the support is nice. The consult is for artificial insemination or IUI. It's the next step I believe in the process of trying to get pregnant and the more affordable one. We can't now or ever afford IVF unless we win the lotto.
Please pray the IUI works, and if it works the first time all the better. I don't know that we can afford many attempts.
I worry about the cost, will the facility be caring and knowledgeable, will it work, and will it hurt. I just hope everyone will pray that it works and that the Dr thinks we should do it.
I've been googling about it, of course, I always do and end up scaring myself. I also read forums and stuff to see what worked for people.
Please pray the IUI works, and if it works the first time all the better. I don't know that we can afford many attempts.
I worry about the cost, will the facility be caring and knowledgeable, will it work, and will it hurt. I just hope everyone will pray that it works and that the Dr thinks we should do it.
I've been googling about it, of course, I always do and end up scaring myself. I also read forums and stuff to see what worked for people.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Bitter Betty
I'm just coming off my period but feeling quite bitter and cranky. Maybe it's because I'm trying to figure out my next step and can't even get an actual human being on the phone at the fertility clinic in Huntersville. I got two messages when I called. Why does every fertility clinic have the worst customer service, don't they know they are dealing with sad hormonal women? Not being able to get pregnant is frustrating enough without being irritated each time I have to call Reach or Affordable Fertility!
I can't win. I'm hoping an OB GYN will do what I need instead of a fertility clinic. They are nicer and maybe it's cheaper.
Yesterday I found out yet another person is pregnant. I know I shouldn't be so jealous but it's hard. I have these herbal pregnancy prep pills. OMG are they gross. I mean I'll try anything at this point to get pregnant.
I just keep on praying. And saying maybe next month is my month. Maybe we'll make a Valentine's baby.
I can't win. I'm hoping an OB GYN will do what I need instead of a fertility clinic. They are nicer and maybe it's cheaper.
Yesterday I found out yet another person is pregnant. I know I shouldn't be so jealous but it's hard. I have these herbal pregnancy prep pills. OMG are they gross. I mean I'll try anything at this point to get pregnant.
I just keep on praying. And saying maybe next month is my month. Maybe we'll make a Valentine's baby.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Feeling crappy eating crappy
I spotted on the 8th. My period due on the 10th so I knew it was coming. It always does that. I've pretty much started today. I don't have any backache or cramps yet but I'm sure it'll be full force tomorrow. Happy Friday. I've been in a crap mood today but getting a little better, at least I'm not on the verge of tears anymore. I've pretty much been void of emotion today, zombie-like.
A few days ago I bought Easymac, Ramen cups, oatmeal creme pie's and brownies. It's awful. My girlfriend said getting fat isn't the same as being pregnant. I eat awful. I'm an emotional eater and a boredom eater. I know I shouldn't. It will take longer in the end to get off. I want to lose weight but don't want to work out rigorously since I'm "trying."
I'm not sure what my next step is. We are at 16 months of trying. I know others have tried for way longer and sometimes I feel bad complaining but I'm so ready for my life to change and be about my child. I want to have good news to tell my family, friends and husband instead of the same thing every month. I feel like something is missing from my life. I feel incomplete. I love my dogs and will always show them attention and love on them even when I have children, but I don't want to just be the crazy dog lady.
I guess I need to start thinking about a laproscopy and saving for artificial insemination. I don't know what I'd do though if I did those and spent all that money and it doesn't work. I know it's not guaranteed.
My right side feels weird too today, almost like ovulation pains. Maybe it's just gas. Who knows.
My friends baby will be here in a few weeks and then another one after that and then another one. Only one of them was trying. I sometimes see families with three children and think why can't god give each of us at least one. Share :) Then I feel guilty for getting so jealous.
A few days ago I bought Easymac, Ramen cups, oatmeal creme pie's and brownies. It's awful. My girlfriend said getting fat isn't the same as being pregnant. I eat awful. I'm an emotional eater and a boredom eater. I know I shouldn't. It will take longer in the end to get off. I want to lose weight but don't want to work out rigorously since I'm "trying."
I'm not sure what my next step is. We are at 16 months of trying. I know others have tried for way longer and sometimes I feel bad complaining but I'm so ready for my life to change and be about my child. I want to have good news to tell my family, friends and husband instead of the same thing every month. I feel like something is missing from my life. I feel incomplete. I love my dogs and will always show them attention and love on them even when I have children, but I don't want to just be the crazy dog lady.
I guess I need to start thinking about a laproscopy and saving for artificial insemination. I don't know what I'd do though if I did those and spent all that money and it doesn't work. I know it's not guaranteed.
My right side feels weird too today, almost like ovulation pains. Maybe it's just gas. Who knows.
My friends baby will be here in a few weeks and then another one after that and then another one. Only one of them was trying. I sometimes see families with three children and think why can't god give each of us at least one. Share :) Then I feel guilty for getting so jealous.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Movie Night
Having a relaxing night with my hubby, watching a couple redbox movies while he makes homemade popcorn and hot chocolate. It's nights like these that we need to enjoy while there isn't a baby around. Although I do go to sit down and notice my boobs are tender.
The whole boob thing is so annoying. They are sore if pregnant, sore if period is coming, sore after ovulation.. so pretty much tender boobs all but a few days! So unless I'm throwing up randomly I'll just think that I'm not pregnant! I read into symptoms way too much and too easily. They say oh don't stress yourself out, but it's utterly impossible. I don't stress all month about it just the two weeks after ovulation, of course. I try to distract myself but I can't stay busy forever. I can't go in any store without looking at baby clothes. I think of ways to tell our parents and to tell Brandon the big news, one day, all the time.
The whole boob thing is so annoying. They are sore if pregnant, sore if period is coming, sore after ovulation.. so pretty much tender boobs all but a few days! So unless I'm throwing up randomly I'll just think that I'm not pregnant! I read into symptoms way too much and too easily. They say oh don't stress yourself out, but it's utterly impossible. I don't stress all month about it just the two weeks after ovulation, of course. I try to distract myself but I can't stay busy forever. I can't go in any store without looking at baby clothes. I think of ways to tell our parents and to tell Brandon the big news, one day, all the time.
Sunday, December 30, 2012
No Tmi here
When you are trying to conceive or maybe it's just me there is never tmi.. The things you discuss with doctors, friends, relatives..like frequency of intimacy, positions, bodily fluids. You just have to lose all modesty. Especially since once pregnant I'm sure it's worse!!
There's a fine line too.. That of course I've already crossed.. Of discussing your struggles too much. Then you get everyone asking when your period is due, where in your cycle you are at and giving advice and tips..sometimes unwanted and uneducated. Most of it because they care!
There are months I want to stop trying, but I can't because we can't afford Ivf or private adoption. Going through DSS is a Long process and there aren't many infants. I couldn't foster humans.. Fostering dogs is one thing but if I got attached to a child and then couldn't adopt them that'd be awful.
There's a fine line too.. That of course I've already crossed.. Of discussing your struggles too much. Then you get everyone asking when your period is due, where in your cycle you are at and giving advice and tips..sometimes unwanted and uneducated. Most of it because they care!
There are months I want to stop trying, but I can't because we can't afford Ivf or private adoption. Going through DSS is a Long process and there aren't many infants. I couldn't foster humans.. Fostering dogs is one thing but if I got attached to a child and then couldn't adopt them that'd be awful.
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